Apology + Leaving

Hello
I have finally made the decision of permanently leaving my platforms. I am so sorry for not reminding you all that I am deactivating. Honestly I just wanted to be forgotten at this point. From all the amount of pressure, guilt, drama, harassment from other people and even from myself, whether I unintentionally have them involved or not. It’s something I have been trying my best to stay away from. I couldn’t take it anymore due to my mental health, unexpected in real life duties to do and conscience no matter how much I push myself.. It finally pushed me off the cliff of discontinuing my work here, and I am not coming back in any ways anymore to continue my projects. I am sorry if I could not continue any of the content you all are expecting for but it was fun while it lasted. For sure I am just happy I was able to bring a lot of joy in people through my art and comics, in just a year. I am so sorry that it has all come to an end.

Also there are a lot of things that I would like to apologize for. And totally will admit I have done a lot of excruciating pain and mistakes in the past towards people, years ago together with some people that I would not mention that partially have been influencing my naive mind alongside. But overall, I am taking the blame for it for being blind and it’s mostly all on me. I have not addressed it properly.

I was involved in unpleasant cases like making alternate accounts manipulating and tricking people, and faking things, for pity and for attention, and to get close to people admittedly. Somewhere going out of lengths to hurt people very deeply. Even my own old friends. It was rather graphic and sensitive and really not okay. I was credulous and I was persuaded to do such things. I never really intended to hurt people but I did. And it was indeed unacceptable. I very much hate myself for being so stupid to get easily be used off.

One thing that majorly happened was faking people’s deaths. To mentally destroy people out of the blue. And it is more deemed especially not okay in any circumstances. It was my fault and I could have known better to stop from there because I had all the will not to do that, but I was held back to some reason thanks to some people. I was getting too perpetuated to do it. And nothing can ever replace what has been done. And I know it is fucked as hell. Information and pictures without permission. But I am taking it and it is my mistake.

I have indeed hurt a ton of people, and any way possible it is outrageous and painful. These are admittedly all gut wrenching things that have been done, and deeply apologizing for it for not being the bigger/ better person and to stop it overall. Since I had that bare ability. I deeply solely regret what has been done.

From the people who influenced me and used me in the past though, whether it's something indeed horrible or not. I already forgave them and I am happy and they're trying their best to be in better terms and states. I have already become numb from everything at this point little by little. And I am happy they're with me to change as well. Past is past, things changed.

Up until now, though. I am sorry if I wasn't enough for you all to be that person you all expect me to be. I am so very sorry I hurt you all ever. But please know I have no bad intentions from the start.

Though, thank you so much however to all the people who continued to support me, and I am forever grateful for them wishing happiness, love and peace.

There were also times I was harassed by multiple accounts / other people, currently starting from last year. And I promise you though, I have done nothing to go out of my way to do horrible things with intention, but they weighed me down enough and I thought I solely deserved it...

But now, I am already trying my best to be a better person learning from my mistakes and lessons that I have come across from years until now. Be around a better environment with better/ trustworthy/ changing people who influence me to be. All I really wanted in the end is to make people feel happy with my artwork and content, and support their passions and interests, join them with me on my comics. But since everything has already weighed me enough, I deeply apologize if I have to stop my adventure from there, and figured it is best for everyone, not only me. I would use this to better everything out of myself as a whole and be the best version of myself hopefully in the future slowly and surely.

To all the people I made great memories with, thank you so much. I tried my best ;w; to make you happy as much as I can.. haha..

I also suggest to be the bigger person too, move along and don't be an idiot like me.

I will not be living off the past or on people I am done with, as much as possible and I shall concentrate on the present and future with a healthy mindset as much as possible. Social media isn't my place right now. I wish you all a better healthier life ahead.

( Made with Carrd )